Christian Committing Suicide
I know that I don't know you and you don't know me. Whatever is wrong with you, or whatever situation you are in, there is an answer that God can give you. God is the best problem solver there is. I'm not talking about getting a little pep talk or finding some random rainbow in the sky, God is real and alive and He is totally interested in you. No matter how bad you think you are and however much you might hate Him, He wants you! I know my words can't sway you to suddenly believe in God, but you really need an encounter with Him. Suicidal thoughts are captivity, they are an indication that you are under demonic oppression. The good news is that Jesus came in the flesh and destroyed the works of the devil. You don't have to be oppressed. Are you captive? Jesus came to set the captives free. This how God is, He loves and delights in helping people who will just surrender and receive Jesus Christ as Lord.
You are not crazy. Friend, you can be set free from these feelings. You can be a new person and everything that haunts you can be broken and removed from your life. This is something Jesus Christ did for me also.
Will I Go to Hell if I commit suicide?
To those of us who dwell or have dwelled in the shadows we sometimes ponder the thought, "Will I go to hell if I commit suicide?" God please have mercy, whoever you are, you have got to get the fear of God in you, that is the beginning of wisdom and maybe you will slow down a minute. I don't like talking about hell and I don't understand why it has to be forever. But the fact is, if someone is not born-again, purchased by the blood of Jesus and dies they will be damned for eternity for rejecting Gods grace.
1 Corinthians 3:16-17 Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple.
I could not prove if suicide is a guaranteed ticket to hell. Yes or No, In no way is suicide good. The idea of rationalizing suicide should be removed immediately. The devil wants to destroy you and bring you to hell. Personally, I believe most suicidal feelings are demonic they do not seem natural to me. God does not want you to kill yourself, He wouldn't have given you life if He willed this. You have one life, and then the judgment so be wise today.
In the natural we are born to enjoy life and the beauty creation, to eat drink and be merry. But as we age things start to change. Suicide usually doesn't come across one's mind out of the blue for no reason, It's built up and usually rooted from depression. In a child I find it impossible to believe that a little one could come up with ideas of cutting their wrists or overdosing on medication because of their feelings. It's not until the mind becomes mature and we believe we are wise and not being like the children God has called us to be that suicide seems like a solution. Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem.
Things that bring up thoughts of suicide overtime can be anything from: Bad childhoods, abuse, rejection, anger, hatred, revenge, and even simply wanting attention. Bi-Polar illness also has a 1:7 ratio of suicide. Suicide isn't taken as seriously as it should be when people want to die because so often a boy comes who "cries wolf" that just wants to get "glory." The odd thing is suicide seems to be glorified as if it's so outrageous you'll leave a memory behind as a legacy of rememberance it. But what happens to you after that? You won't be there when people think about you, you are going to be in Heaven or Hell, this is a dangerous gamble with your soul. When walking through a graveyard we don't know the majority people who died, that's all suicide leads to and you will soon be forgotten. I'm not taking your feelings for granted but understand to kill yourself is extremely serious. Mental Illnesses are difficult to measure with this.
For the living know that they will die, but the dead know nothing;
they have no further reward,
and even the memory of them is forgotten.
Their love, their hate and their jealousy have long since vanished;
never again will they have a part
in anything that happens under the sun.
If every waking moment of your day is a serious thought or plan of action to suicide, the problem needs immediate attention. If suicide is something thought up after having a bad day, you shouldn't fret over this unless the feelings return a few times. For those in the chains in their feelings of suicide, do you find it odd the feelings and thoughts stay and will not go away?
I believe suicidal desires are strongly spiritual. It is something that does not go away easily, you must ask Jesus for help with this. For me, It seemed as if I was in a black hole and the light above slowly closed off where I lost all hope in anything, so I did try to kill myself.
People say: "If you were going to kill yourself you would have done it." I have two arguments to that. First, There is a God who is alive and protects millions of people who aren't aware of His protection. Second, people that speak with arrogant careless knowledge do not understand you. Do not worry about peoples opinions, it's just a meaningless rambling mind. To say very the first statement it almost encourages one to attempt suicide just to prove it. It is a heartless evil thing to suggest.
Again, Suicidal thoughts don't come out of the blue; you should consider what has led you to believe your life is not worth living. I think the two biggest problems are wanting to be loved and living in loneliness. Sadness turns into silence, silence turns into this depression, depression turns into hate, and the hate get's directed towards self. Stay on Guard, do not let this happen to you.
Try and look back at changes in the recent months of your personality, or remember any hurt that was inflicted upon you emotionally or physically. This isn't to rise feeling of hurt again, it's to get to the root of what's really bothering you, what is it? If you don't get rid of the garbage you will never find a way to keep the rats from feeding on it.
Getting It Out
I personally never wanted to talk seriously about suicide because it feels that nobody can relate enough, they are not you. Sometimes it can turn into a battle of Who had the worst experiences, which basically says the other person bestows a greater right in suicide and you are less important, this is meaningless. Nobody can justify your feelings for you, don't let them. The fact of the matter is everyone copes with things differently. Tolerances to feelings fluctuate person to person. If you really have no hope and want to end it all, get a journal and write how you feel - then show a trusted person what you wrote. It is much easier to write it than to say it from the heart, this may save your life.
The knowledge of God leads to love, if you want love seek God - since you have nothing to lose you have a lot to gain if you find the Lord. Please seek God to escape the mucky swamps of suicide.
Don't Get Ripped Off
Daily suicidal thoughts is no way to live. Please do not act on suicide because it is not everything that is wrong, it is your perception that is wrong. If you let God tell you the truth you will see differently. Is the price of Hell worth your God given life?