Gods not to Blame

Jesse (August 29th, 2006)

Right now Im in Michigan helping my dad with some business things, mostly computer stuff. Anyways, I was pacing the back shop floor and I was thinking about Jesus teaching the Sermon on the Mount. How glad he had to have been to have all the people sit and listen to Him speak. I just wonder about the compassion He feels in His heart, and what Jesus felt when he was talking to those people and telling them about the Kingdom of God and love.

I went to the corner of the shop room area and just sat there thinking. God created us, corrected people in the Old Testament with much patience, He came and taught us about love and to save our souls. We beat and mocked Him, killed Him by torturing Him on a cross, and He found it all worth coming. Thinking about it, God made us and then suffered for us. What has He done wrong? I sometimes get mad at God when he's not the one to blame. When things aren't going how I expect them, which they never do, I get frustrated. But how can I sit here and blame God for these little things things when He is not the one to blame! He came to save us to live with Him forever in paradise when we did terrible things to Him.

Have you ever hated Jesus? I have, and without a reason. I thought about how many times I get so angry at God for not doing something in my life and feeling like I'm waiting around for Him to tell me something specific to do. I'm complaining and arguing with the One whose heart loves me after hating Him, rejecting Him, and cursing Him. I was just like another person in the crowd shouting, "Crucify!" Until I really get to know the heart of Jesus Christ more and more all I can do is cover my mouth and not say anything because He has done nothing wrong. I just imagine His face when He gets to suprise one of us and I wonder about His facial expression when someone accepts Him.

God didn't have to do any of this. He could have abandoned all creation for our wicked sin. I struggle day to day to not even commit one sin, God doesn't sin because He is perfect, He has never sinned in all existence. How can I a young 21 year old give God a piece of my mind when He has already done so much. I am a fool, but thank God for His patience. I just sit and realize that we wouldn't be here, not this little website, or my computer or my family if it weren't for Him. Who am I? I better make sure I'm right with God all the time, because if I'm not, I've been deceived by myself and the devil.

God Bless.