Living for Jesus

Today we have the smallest Christmas under the tree and I thought about it. My family used to have a lot of money and I used to make a good portion on my own. I used to have nice cars like a Camaro, Firebird, and Tiburon. I used to have quite a bit of friends and a lot of places to go, and even some girls took interest in me. I have had a lot of things in the few years I've lived and I'm thankful for them. When I look back at the things I used to want I no longer want them like I did. All these tangible objects I could afford and filling my schedule with events didn't fulfill my heart. I know how having a lot of nice things and busy schedule can keep my mind off the lover of my soul. I know with a lot of money I get prideful, and I had prayed that the Lord not make me too poor that I neglect Him or too rich that I forget Him, which is in Eccelisastes I think.

Back then the things I had seemed like everything to living a good life and impossible to consider living without. Many times God was working the love for money and earthly treasures out of me. I know I have to watch myself because money will make me think I'm someone I'm not. I apply that to myself not everyone is the same. Money is not evil, but the love of it is. Success is not evil, but a life long chase of it can be an endless cycle of unfilfillment.

I considered what I have when I stood outside today looking at the green trees with raindrops on them. The best thing I have in life is my relationship with Jesus. I could say that in the past but in my heart I didn't mean it because old thoughts were on my things and how I look. But now after a lot of storms and help I am learning how precious Jesus is. In my entire life He has never stopped loving me, most of the time I never realized it because I never listened to Him. My entire life He has protected me. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, a nice family, and the best thing is joy in my heart knowing the King of Kings and ministering back and forth to eachother.

He makes life simple again, not confusing. He makes me feel like a little kid, full of peace and free to live. He has always been faithful when I have been unfaithful. The revelations leading up to this day have always been to know the heart of God, this is everything I want. The more I learn about God and His nature the more I fall in love with Him and want to give Him more. The treasure of the spirit of Jesus in my life is so valuable that I want to tell other people about Him and see them full of joy and hope like I have.

This thought didn't come out exactly how I wanted but I did it as well as I could. Hey, I think it's nice to have nice things. I think it's good to have friends and things to do. I think Jesus is really the treasure of your heart when you are thanking Him throughout day and you are so hungry to just go pray to Him. I am excited to see where God takes me next.